I had morning sickness and was trying hard to look after myself, now about 5 weeks pregnant, but it was a struggle with the lack of structure in my life over the summer, and all this travel.

Today though, back to work, just for a week. I was feeling guilty and conflicted about work. This was really the first time in my life that I was€n’t putting work ahead of everything else and it made me very uneasy.
I was lonely and felt very isolated.
It wasn’€™t a choice I’d made, to go through life alone.

"It wasn’€™t a choice I’d made, to go through life alone."

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